I've made some pretty big mistakes as I grew into my leadership roles. I was fresh out of college (although I did enter college at 24), with a bit of leadership experience under my belt and I found myself the leader of about 60 children's ministry volunteers! I knew that I was good at some things - better, even, than a lot of my team - but I had no idea how to lead.
I left a wake of relational damage in those first 6months - 1year; nothing irreparable, but when I look back, it's embarrassing and could have been potentially damaging to my future ministry. During that time I was eager to prove that I belonged in this position. That my salary was justified on the work that I could do. That even though I was 'young' I was a good leader.
In reality, a lot of my actions were simply because I was insecure and afraid of doing a poor job. I was scared someone might call me out for posing as a leader. My path was leading me to two possible actions:
If insecurity and fear cause you to make poor decisions, why is being afraid good for a leader?
If, as a leader, you find yourself afraid, be glad - because you are on your way to growing in your capacity, your faith and being able to overcome a problem that seems insurmountable.
I am a pastor in rural Manitoba that is passionate about the church, leadership, coffee and bicycles.